@Ticket support@Sengoku Eiyu Izzy

I’m here

just as I said..

Why

You've been quiet for quite some time this is pretty outta the blue

The whole suicidal ideation thing too what's up with that?

oh I always had it on me for years

it's just resurfacing itself

So why does that tie in to you wanting to leave?

it's just as I said, I don't feel like I fit in this place anymore, or anywhere

But that's not real man that's shit in your head telling you that, gotta tune that shit out

more like 'oh it's him again'

No one thinks that

Iz, you’ve been here 2 years and we have always been here, I know you have had shit on and I get it but you feel like you don’t fit and I get that too but you haven’t been spending time with us and getting to know us again we have a lot new active members that you don’t know and the opportunity to make relationships with xx

I don't do well with huge crowds..

I have this 2 min time limit that ticks me in my head that says...'get in and get out'. Oh I'll support anybody else but when it comes to me, I'm nobody

it's not even about time zone anymore

I always feel like I gotta measure up to everyone else so I'm actually worth something cause with me it's never good enough..more like anyone I encounter on here or real life, I gotta rank up to be worth someone important

i hate to say it man but, this sounds like something you should talk to a professional about i can sit here and let you vent all day but i cant diagnose or treat the way they can, therapy can yield actual help vs a friend just being good to listen to you

already seeing someone about that

not asking for a diagnosis either, you asked why, I told you

no i know i just dont wanna not say that part you know?

im sorry you feel the way you do but those are just thoughts they are not materialized in reality, if you give ppl a chance, you can make some friends

just gotta try

plus its the internet we all feel that way in some form or another to some degree thats why we are here right?

looking for comradery that sorta thing

I heard enough people outrank me in my family, on here people constantly saying they're affiliate/partner, in church..God..it irritates me to no end there

check this out, im 38 and at university with ppl less than half my age u wana talk bout not fitting in ha

man honestly fuck twitch affiliate and partner none of that matters if you arent happy

streaming is fun when its fun and when its not u gotta get right with yourself

shit stopped being fun for me i aint streamed in ages

but im at peace with it

it's like I said...not that I don't mind streaming, I have no crowd, I know I'm a nobody

man that aint true cmon u know it isnt either, we can all feel that way at times but there ppl that love u

i try to think about the things in life i enjoy when i feel like that to remind me why i enjoy breathing u know?

like cyberpunk 2077

lol

plus gtavi gotta be around for that

just tryin to lighten your spirits a bit

I know

but yeah man, start small right?

baby steps everything is babysteps

just hop in a voice chat when its just me n quack sometime

get to know some ppl

gotta give human beings a chance no matter how often they let you down

its worth it when u meet the handful that are genuine and caring decent ppl

...been on Youtube for 15 years, Twitch half as long

thought of killing my name

or something

ive rebranded a few times

feels nice

fresh start

15 years on youtube? damn

i dontr think ive had any social that long

ive had socials that long ago but ive got new ones since

listen izzy i gotta run to bed are you going to be safe? i let staff know to come check in on you

gives me more purpose than Twitch does and the ppl that do follow me? I barely see em

mhm

ok well make new followers let that shit be a revolving door

because it can be sometimes

or take a break, just game off cam for a while

its fun i promise

uhm

i got a dune server and an ark server

u can join either anytime

okay

i mean dont stream just game

get back to the "love of the game"

yeah I get ya

u got this Izzy (edited)

mhm..

have faith stay strong and if you find yourself ina dark place please call the number u need to call

ill make sure ppl check in on you as they get around to waking up

mhm

dont leave, ima wake up n see u still here right?

mhm

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Hi @Sengoku Eiyu Izzy I have been in your position the last 6-7months so I know how you are feeling...if u wanna send me a friends request feel free as im coming out slowly the other side through therapy and talking to great friends on this server...if u want to chat im available all today..DO NOT EVER THINK YOU ARE ALONE...YOU ARE NOT...PLEASE REACH OUT (edited)

thanks.

@Sengoku Eiyu Izzy you ok?

yeah

dazzy talked to ya abit?

@Sengoku Eiyu Izzy Hope you're doing well friend. (:

he did a bit yes

I'm okay

Hi there, I have had mental health issues before and trust me, they can suck - but as long as you have a network of friends and contacts you can reach out and talk to, then you don't have to face it alone You are loved and valid

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